🗓️//May Audition Round-up

01/06/2025

    Auditions - 4
  • 📹Self Tapes - 4
  • 🤝In Person - 1

    of those auditions...
  • 🏷️Adverts - 3
  • 🎭Theatre - 1
  • 📺TV - 1

Lots more adverts this month, which I don't really mind. The opportunity is always great, and the situations are usually strange enough that filming them is a fun process in and of itself.

Honestly though, it has been quite a tough month. My personal life has been a bit more unpredictable than I would have liked. My day job has gone from offering next to no shifts at all, to lots of shifts packed into a very small amount of time, and scheduled at the last minute. No doubt a boon for the old bank balance, but not great for healthy habits like sleep or exercise, or getting anything else done. My partner, who also works from home, has also been working on some very big projects this month. Since our appartment is so small, it doesn't take much for her work to spill out and take up most of the living space. I don't begrudge her this at all, of course. I LOVE to see her thrive. She is incredible at what she does, and to see her make progress in her career is beyond inspiring, but we both know that it makes demands on the limited space we have.

This goes some way to explain the lack of progress on my voice work, which is still sitting in the NOW page. If she is in the flat AT ALL, recording clean audio is next to impossible. Never mind the sounds that come from her work; our floorboards are so creaky that there really isn't a single spot in the flat that's safe to stand in. Again, this isn't a problem. I'm happy to wait until she's working elsewhere, but again, with shifts cropping up all over the place at the day job, finding those moments where our schedules align is like waiting for the stars to do the same thing.

There was also an amazing theatre audition this month. Honestly, despite the fact I didn't get the gig, I'm still really happy with how the audition went. It was a wonderful in-person meeting, with a full hour-long group movement workshop on top of the one-to-one monologue study, which still feels amazing after so many self-tapes. Actually getting to meet the artists you might be working with brings so much to my confidence in the room and stops me from fixating on the tiny differences between the dozen or so takes I do of any given self-tape. I can just go in, have fun, do my thing, and go home. IN. OUT. DONE.

The director and crew were lovely and had an amazing script on their hands, and they even offered feedback after they sent back the results, which is pretty rare these days but much appreciated. It did go a long way to quashing what little insecurities I had about how the audition went.

Having said that, my insecurities have been flaring up again. It's something I need to keep constant watch over, and leads to what must be pretty annoying conversations with my partner about whether or not I should keep on doing this. She's an ex-actor herself, and knows all too well the pain of constant rejection, the emotional and financial turmoil, and the lack of feedback, which means you never quite know.

But this has felt nice. Writing this update. I think I needed it. I want to write more this month. That might be a journal entry or a blog post. Not sure yet. If you don't see any more posts from me, assume I wrote it in my diary instead.